I never thought to fall like this it was incredible..even led me to having my first kid. so in love with you i felt like u was the drug i needed to give me that rush, until that one day i woke up and look at myself in the mirror asking who was the girl staring at me. All i kept on saying is that cant be me..why do i look like I've been through hell and back? bags under my eyes, tear streaming down my face, my hair falling out and worst of all a bruise in my heart. Where did i go? what have i become? more like what had he done to me? Asking myself why do i love someone that doesn't love me back walks all over me and expects for me to take him back. How long had i been fooling myself ?Telling myself "oh he loves me"when in reality all he was doing was killing me. Draining me out sucking the life out of to then tell me how he wants to be with me. With pain in my heart tears in my eyes treating me like i was nothing just another one that he can do what he wants with now I'm giving all this up ...as i walk away from this I'm telling myself never ever would i choose not to see the pain....never ever would i confuse pain with love or tears for a smile.....thought he loved me all he did was kill me...
